Stay in Libya, with money problems
Your family gathered everything they have so you cannot ask for anymore and you don't want them to be disappointed - they are hoping that if you make it to Europe it could make it easier for them to join you. Like thousands of other refugees and migrants, you get a job sweeping the roads to try and save for the journey or to send money home. You move into a cramped apartment in Tripoli with 50 others.
But this is not without dangers. Libya has not ratified the 1951 Refugee Convention or the 1967 protocol, and has failed to adopt asylum legislation. Libyan law criminalises unauthorised migration and does not distinguish between migrants, refugees, victims of trafficking or others in need of international protection (all are considered illegal immigrants). "Illegal immigrants" are subject to fines, detention and expulsion.
According to a Human Rights Watch report published in June 2014 detailing the treatment asylum seekers and migrants face when in detention: "They [the detainees] said guards beat them with iron rods, sticks, and rifle butts, and whipped them with cables, hose pipes, and rubber whips made of car tires and plastic tubes, sometimes over prolonged periods of time on the soles of their feet.
Meanwhile, the conflict in Libya is threatening your safety - armed groups allied to Libya's rival governments are locked in a battle for control of the oil-rich nation.